My friend I met on a dating site and I have not met yet. Still. Now I know how impatient I can be (thanks Mom for always getting so mad when I said I would do something later!) but it has been a few weeks of texting and talking on the phone so I don’t think it is too soon. And of course, Frank is having a field day with this all.
Everything is going really well, we text most days and I am slowly learning about him. I know what kind of music he likes and I know his favorite songs. I know what movies he is into and his favorites. Where he grew up, siblings, family. His favorite color and favorite food. We are having a great time getting to know each other and it is definitely not a physical thing (I am totally attracted to him but not ready or willing to go there!) so why is meeting so important to me, anyway?
Frank’s (the mean voice in my head or affectionately known as my Crazy) voice…maybe you are too much for him and he doesn’t know how to tell you so he is just slowly phasing you out? Maybe you work too much and he doesn’t want to compete with that? Maybe he knows you are super impatient and doesn’t want you to meet and get bored so he is dragging out the meet? Conversely, I have been very clear about the fact that I am looking for a relationship and not a casual fling so maybe that isn’t what he is interested in. OR MAYBE HE IS JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU!
Frank is not all cynical, he also puts worms in that are over-confident and arrogant like…he thinks you are too pretty and won’t be interested in him, and you are pretty successful–you know that is intimidating, right? just to round things out a little. Oh, and my favorite one of all is when Frank tells me to realize that I am single for a reason and it isn’t because I am too wonderful. Nope, it is because I am too much for most guys!
The real Amanda knows that none of this stuff is true. I don’t think I am too much. I don’t think I am too pretty or too successful or too impatient. And yes, I know that the perfect person is out there for me and I just have to slow down and enjoy the ride. And honestly, I have a pretty perfect life and I just want to share it. Breath, Amanda!!!